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The Funny Thing About Losing



It's becoming such a regular occurrence. Lately, everything I play I lose. Now mind you, it's only games that I really care about like Spades and Kickball. (So although I lost the balloon toss as well the other day, it's not as big of a deal to me)

What is particularly disturbing is that it is never clear from the beginning that I'll be losing. In Spades I'll have a phenomenal hand. For kickball the other day I had the all star team.  Yet it's in the last second, must have been a fluke,  kinds of drama that I LOSE! And I really love to win. 

It's been going on for almost a year now.  So what's up with that? All of this losing is calling my competitive nature to the carpet. It's making me not even want to be competitive. Who wants to lose?! Play to win is so redundant in my mind. Why else would anyone play but to win????

Yet, God has had me praying for several months: "Please don't allow my competitive nature to blind me from ministry." Hm. Is it for Jesus' sake that I'm losing? Do we play to win, but only to lose out in this life? 
Just musing.

"(As the Scriptures say, "For your sake we are killed every day; we are being slaughtered like sheep.")No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us."
 Romans 8:36-37

Christ loved me when I was the ultimate loser lost in sin, and He loves me even now when I experience loss as a believer. 



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