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Confession: Delays= Problem in Me

Confession: Delays= Problem in Me

Did you follow my instructions? Mostly. Almost. Sort of. Except for... So then the answer is no.

This scenario happened a few months ago when I was trying to speak with my spiritual mom. Delay. Obstacle. I asked God why and He said it was because of me! I had only partially followed an instruction.

Fast Forward a few months.

"I'll tell you the date when you are ready to buy the ticket. "

Meanwhile I presumed the best date for the work in Uganda and began planning around that, speaking, according to that, taking work off according to that, even acting in faith according to MY PLANS. (Mind you faith is to be placed in God not ourselves or our own ability to accomplish a task.)

My plans and your plans are not = to God's plans unless they come from Him. So my plans failed. Fell flat and left me disappointed, discouraged, confused, and upset! Until I realized that they were mine, not His. No one to be mad at but me. Sin of presumption. Nothing to do but repent and ask for mercy. http://www.calvarychapeljonesboro.org/proverb-a-day/the-little-known-but-oft-practiced-sin-of-presumption-proverbs-1310

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